Walking With Grandmpa [my father and grand-daughter]

Walking With Grandmpa [my father and grand-daughter]
"I like walking with granpa his steps are short like mine." (dedicated to my dad who passed 4/1/10)
Showing posts with label On the road to a healthy me!. Show all posts
Showing posts with label On the road to a healthy me!. Show all posts

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Dr Phil 20/20 Diet, fingers crossed

Sorry but I am getting a bit personal here hope no one minds or is offended....I have come to realize a few things lately....first of all I love taking care of the ones I love. My children of course are first (and will always be first :), but when grandpa got sick I cared for him a little over 4 years, when we lost him soon after is when Dad and Mom started having problems so I cared for them both, then Dad passed in 2010....and since I have been Moms caregiver 24/7 and during this time my babies grew up on me.....don't get me wrong here I wouldn't change any of the decision's I made. My kids understand the more love you give the more you have to give....its just that sometimes life has a way of giving you a quick slap in the face....
I did my usual yearly blood work 2 weeks ago thinking everything would be fine like usual (I always think can't get sick too many to care for) :) well a few things are running a bit high and my Dr said we won't worry about it now but do a follow up blood work in 3 months if still high we will talk.....I think for the first time in over 26 years I looked "really" looked at myself....I see someone that has spent the last 26 years putting herself on the back burner and it shows! I have kinda let myself go a bit and gained 40 pounds over those years along with a bit of worry over loved ones here and there and also not eating as good as I should have......I am not writing this for a feel sorry for me but more of a "I am holding myself accountable" I realize life is not forever and this body we are each given should be cared for mentally and physically.....I also took a good look at my youngest daughter (she has a sweet little 10 month old) and thought she is going down the same road as I have only she is doing it 8 years earlier, kinda Mom see Mom do thing....I feel I need to change now and help her in the process so she doesn't get a similar slap in the face later in life....I am not saying don't take care of loved ones when they need help, just saying don't loose yourself during these times. I am beginning by "like the Dr said" eating more healthy and try my darnedest to loose the 40 pounds before my next blood work, take 30 minutes a day for just me time, exercise, then if still high I can say I did my best and see where the Dr wants to go from there! I thought the best way to (hopefully) keep me from backsliding is to update my progress weekly here on my blog with a picture of now and fingers crossed by April a picture of  me with 40 pounds less.....
I have been looking at diet books and most I felt I wouldn't be using for the long haul...I want a diet that will be more of a lifestyle change not one I would loose the weight then gain it all back and then some! I am loosing the weight for my health and if I can loose it I sure don't want it back a few months later! :) I ran across the Dr Phil 20/20 diet and I feel this fits me well (just finished reading the book this morning) I hope I will be posting here in 3 months with less weight but more important better numbers on my blood work!