Walking With Grandmpa [my father and grand-daughter]

Walking With Grandmpa [my father and grand-daughter]
"I like walking with granpa his steps are short like mine." (dedicated to my dad who passed 4/1/10)

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Dr Phil 20/20 Diet, fingers crossed

Sorry but I am getting a bit personal here hope no one minds or is offended....I have come to realize a few things lately....first of all I love taking care of the ones I love. My children of course are first (and will always be first :), but when grandpa got sick I cared for him a little over 4 years, when we lost him soon after is when Dad and Mom started having problems so I cared for them both, then Dad passed in 2010....and since I have been Moms caregiver 24/7 and during this time my babies grew up on me.....don't get me wrong here I wouldn't change any of the decision's I made. My kids understand the more love you give the more you have to give....its just that sometimes life has a way of giving you a quick slap in the face....
I did my usual yearly blood work 2 weeks ago thinking everything would be fine like usual (I always think can't get sick too many to care for) :) well a few things are running a bit high and my Dr said we won't worry about it now but do a follow up blood work in 3 months if still high we will talk.....I think for the first time in over 26 years I looked "really" looked at myself....I see someone that has spent the last 26 years putting herself on the back burner and it shows! I have kinda let myself go a bit and gained 40 pounds over those years along with a bit of worry over loved ones here and there and also not eating as good as I should have......I am not writing this for a feel sorry for me but more of a "I am holding myself accountable" I realize life is not forever and this body we are each given should be cared for mentally and physically.....I also took a good look at my youngest daughter (she has a sweet little 10 month old) and thought she is going down the same road as I have only she is doing it 8 years earlier, kinda Mom see Mom do thing....I feel I need to change now and help her in the process so she doesn't get a similar slap in the face later in life....I am not saying don't take care of loved ones when they need help, just saying don't loose yourself during these times. I am beginning by "like the Dr said" eating more healthy and try my darnedest to loose the 40 pounds before my next blood work, take 30 minutes a day for just me time, exercise, then if still high I can say I did my best and see where the Dr wants to go from there! I thought the best way to (hopefully) keep me from backsliding is to update my progress weekly here on my blog with a picture of now and fingers crossed by April a picture of  me with 40 pounds less.....
I have been looking at diet books and most I felt I wouldn't be using for the long haul...I want a diet that will be more of a lifestyle change not one I would loose the weight then gain it all back and then some! I am loosing the weight for my health and if I can loose it I sure don't want it back a few months later! :) I ran across the Dr Phil 20/20 diet and I feel this fits me well (just finished reading the book this morning) I hope I will be posting here in 3 months with less weight but more important better numbers on my blood work! 

It ended up being a lot harder than I thought it would be taking a picture of only me...this was a picture my sister slipped in on me last week when I told her I had been trying to take a picture of myself.... I prefer to kinda be way in the background or better yet behind the camera if that makes since....fingers crossed maybe in 3 months that will change also :) I think this is the hardest post I have wrote I think because its about just me?

Friday, January 9, 2015

Back to blogging :)

I finally have a new tablet so I can post again, thanks dear! The last four months have gone by quickly! Since my last post (in August) Jimmy has cleared about 20 acres and planted grass seed and cleared about half a mile around some of our fence. This is how it looked before (close to fence line) when he started
This is how it looks now, it's going to make fixing fence so much easier, I can drive up to it with the truck and not have to make a couple trips carrying what I need for repairs each time a fence is down. I can't wait until all the 2 - 2 1/2 miles of fence are cleared
He has gotten all this accomplished along with working over 50 hours a week at his job, so proud of him! This is the first time I have had to freeze most of our vegetables and fruit. My vertigo has acted up a lot over the last three months and this kept me from working on much, so many things had to be put on the back burner.....I have started canning this week, (mostly jelly) I have used a lot of the frozen veggies so not a lot to do. I am soooo happy to be finally feeling better!.....bad news/good news....our outside wood furnace was too bad to even try to repair this year (hubby said), it's 34 years old (he has welded it so much over the last 4 years now there is nothing left to weld....so we have worked really hard this past year to save enough money to buy a heatmor. Hubby picked it up a few weeks ago and has it setting on a concrete pad and pipe running underground to the house (now have to fabricate inside house) trying to get it installed this month, not sure if that will happen since our house is over 150 years old and has never had duct work before so Jim has a lot of work still to do.We are lucky that our forced air is still putting along. :)
We had a bit of snow the other day, it looked really pretty with the green grass.
My granddaughter and mom can be so cute sometimes! What one does so does so does the other.....my granddaughter had to have some tests ran and when I went to the front desk to ask a question, she found the masks on the wall and this is what I came back to.....
We had a really nice Christmas, our kids and grand kids were all together and are all in good health. I just can't believe how fast the year went by.....This is my newest grand babies first Christmas she was amazed by everything around her but of course the wrapping paper was her favorite part. I love this photo of her.
Hope everyone had a nice Christmas! It sure does feel good to be back on my blog! :)




Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Waiting and summer fun

We are still waiting on the electric company, I called yesterday and ask them if they could please call the day before they arrive and they said they will. I was getting tired of every time I leave the house I had to move the goats to a small pen in case they came while I was gone (don't want new goats to take off). The pole that needs replaced is in the goat pen so the fence has to be cut to get their truck in, anyway when I called they said I just made it to the list....wish I would have ask them weeks ago :)
The garden has done really good this year! When I do my Talley at the end of season I know its going to be way more than last year!
I don't use any pesticides on the garden, I just plant a little extra so the little bit that the insects or rabbits get don't bother me, besides they have to eat too. Anyway I found a friend in the garden yesterday (one I am allergic to) but a friend none the less :)
Our bottle baby Frankie is getting big, his mom Rosie still brings him up twice every day to get his bottle. I do only bottle feed him once a day now and grain feed him on his second feeding. The other day my youngest daughter and her little one came out to pet Frankie while I was feeding him (Frankie being Frankie) after his bottle he  reminds me of a cat, he rubs on my leg wants his neck and ears scratched....in the process my grand daughter dropped her Binky and Frankie started nudging it with his nose....my daughter told him he could have it and put it in his mouth, not really thinking he would take it.
He looked so cute I had to run in the house to get my camera, didn't need to hurry though when I came back out he still had it in his mouth! I ended up taking it away from him when they started to leave, didn't want him to break it and maybe get it in his mouth. I love my farm family!!




Friday, July 18, 2014

Replacing electric pole

The electric co op came out to inspect our lines and decided we need to have an upgraded meter and a pole replaced. This pole is on the fence line between the goat pen and our yard. There is also a tree in the way of replacing pole so the tree was cut and half ended up in the yard and other half in goat pen...
The half that fell in the yard is waiting on hubby to come home to help me with cutting and clean up (more firewood). The half that fell in the pen with the goats....
They are enjoying an unexpected snack along with a new toy to run around and jump on....
Here also are our two new little ones, on the right is Bucky and left is Sadie
Goats are so fun to watch, they find play in everything around them.  When we get all this cleaned up so the co op can set the new pole I can't wait to see what the goats think of the new pole and I also ordered a dust to dawn light for the top of the pole so some of their pen will be lit at night....





Sunday, July 13, 2014

vacation, home and new little ones

We had a really nice vacation! I told hubby we need to do this at least once every couple years :)
But it felt so good to see our driveway again!
It was nice to realize the next morning that nothing had changed.....short britches (Dexter calf) got into the yard and was trying to reach into the goat pin to eat their food. Gilbert (my goat) was as usual not happy about it....
The little guy (Rosie's calf) is now three weeks old, the poor girl can't take care of him by herself (developed a problem last year and now doesn't produce enough milk) so she brings him up twice a day and we give him a bottle.
Rosie still loves to lick the bottle after her baby is finished....
We did have a nice get together on July 4th, my 4 month old grand daughter was amazed by the fireworks...
My nephew's favorite thing was the desert...
Hubby and I went to a goat farm last week to get a 2 month old male goat...but we also fell in love with a 3 month old girl so we came home with both! Above is their family :) I have pictures of the new arrivals but can't seem to get them to load so maybe next post. The couple that have the farm are very nice, the kind of people you feel right at home pulling up a chair and talking a bit with.....of course we more or less did just that.....she even taught me a few things I didn't know about goats. All in all so far its been an eventful July!


Saturday, June 21, 2014

Nutrigrain mill and long awaited vacation!

I learned an important lesson "if you get points letters in the mail check it out" My husband has to stay in a motel because his job is 5 hours from our home well he has been getting these letters in the mail (that I sadly ignored) about reward points for over 4 years because of staying in these motels....we thought it was just for free nights but since we don't get away that often I never checked into it....but hubby decided to check into it about a month ago and found out it was not just for free stays in the motel you can purchase hundreds of different items with your points! He had over 200,000 points so I got on the site and found something I have been wanting for years!! So happy :) and it was only 74,000 points

Next I purchased berries: 25 pounds each of spring white wheat and red wheat, 5 pounds each of rye, barley, spelt and 2 buckets with locking seals for the red and white wheat.

I was so excited to start grinding my flour! The first batch I made was rather disheartening they were rather heavy and dense so I decided to change a few ingredients here and there, then after more a couple more batches I ended up going back to the recipe Whole Wheat Honey Bread from a book I got a while back but I also added 1 tablespoon dough enhancer with 1 teaspoon water and I love it! the bread is light and airy and also make a great sandwich bread, I have made three batches of 2 loaves each since then and they have all turned out great. There is something about grinding berries into flour that is so exhilarating It makes me feel that this is one more thing I can control! The bread is not as light and airy as store bought white but I am slowly getting there and the flavor is so much better!
We are also finally using the vacation my husbands boss gave him three years ago! :) we are going (with two of our grandchildren) to Pigeon Forge Tenn for four days and Franklin NC for two. This is thanks to my youngest daughter that volunteered to set with my Mom and tend to our animals this coming week and thanks to our oldest for letting us take both her children. Excited!!





Friday, May 2, 2014

Past and Present

So glad April is over, seems like I am always looking over my shoulder thinking let nothing bad happen, I am sure most everyone has a month or a day they dread? I lost my grandfather and father in April, my grandfather (I was his power of attorney) when complications from a surgery occurred I was the one that had to turn off the machine.  I think this was hardest decision I ever had to make, looking back I think it was that much harder because I had to do it alone, I was the only one that could make it. My grandfather had a living will and it said never to be put on a machine because (he said) he did not ever want to put me in the position of turning it off, but things happened so fast the hospital put him on without (I guess) looking at his records. They informed me that once he was on the machine it reverted to the power of attorney and that person had to remove it and of course that was me. I almost wanted to say and now you are looking at his living will.....My father didn't have a living will and when complication happened the hospital wanted to put him on the machine (they said) long enough to run tests to see if they could find what went wrong, they did not find the cause but they said he was brain dead and the machine had to be turned off. This decision (with Dad) was between my 5 siblings and I, this may sound odd but it took a lot of stress off me knowing I was not doing it alone this time. With my grandfather the stress of what I had to do put me in the ER but with dad it was just the gut wrenching sorrow of loosing a very important love in my life. I could almost feel the distribution of the decision with dad resting on the shoulders of all of us not just mine, if that makes sense? My grandfather passed 10 years ago and Dad 4, both within a few days of Easter. I hope one of these years I look forward to April again, it was/is a time of family get togethers, BBQs, church events, it all still goes on around me, I just cant seem to get the same "feeling" I used to get. I hope soon it will be like that again without the pain. Sorry did not plan to post the above, I just sat down to post births and it happened...
On to the farm :) We had two births in April
                                       Bella had a girl
                              Snowball also had a girl
When looking at all three calves the other day my daughter laughed and said they look like the ink was slowly running out....